Rosie Posie

I H AVE MOVED!

2008-12-20T05:11:00.001-08:00

http://everythingisalright-rosie.blogspot.com/

My new blog! Enjoy :)

Meow

2008-12-16T13:49:00.000-08:00

I have decided from now on to update more, because I keep forgetting about my journal so at least this way I'll have some sort of memory of what was happening during my life at a certain time.

So work is boring. I'm pretty sure I saw trays of dead bodies today- great. All the medical students were being nerdy and hanging around, they thought I was just the photocopying girl so they seemed a bit snobby. One of them had nice arms though, haha.

I have an essay due Thursday so I went all the way to uni to get a video for it, but I just don't have the energy. I should of started sooner but I couldn't find the time and I'm just not inspired about it. Oh well, another bad grade I guess.

I'm looking forward to Christmas :3 hehe. I'll update sooner when I'm in higher spirits! Yawn yawn, I love sleep toooooo much.

Ooo hope everyone enjoys my playlist haha, all my favourite sad songs <3

Sorrow

2008-11-21T10:30:00.000-08:00

Hmm so recently I've been feeling really ill.
First of all I had PMS-
I felt tired, irritable and like nothing was real. I find it hard to interact and I felt like I was living in a dream world.
After that it was my period so I felt tired but happy.
Now it's after my period but now I feel tired, dizzy, moody and anxious.

Apparently I'm suffering from anxiety attacks but who knows whats wrong with me. I'm happy when talking to other people but being at work drives me insane. I think I spend too much time alone.

I NEED A HUG.

Disseration...disheartning.

2008-11-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

So for uni I have to do a 10,000 word disseration on anything I want involving film.
I decidied to do it on third wave feminism and it's effects on gender representation in the last decade. What a stupid idea hahaha.
It's just annoying because women are never potrayed properly, I guess you could argue men aren't but there is a bigger demographic in film that allows more spectrums of the male physce to be potrayed rather than the womans.
Anyway, I'm gonna focus on those films that guy made, Jude Apatow. He always makes 'unattrative' guys accesible to 'super hot women' who are in more succesful. Ye ye ye. Rant over.

Also...yay for Oboma!

As Mark Ronson said...'I feel like the whole world has won the superbowl'

So time for the quizzie...

Instructions:
Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation.

1. The age you’ll be on your next birthday

Simple enough!

2. A place you’d like to travel to

Venice! I was going to put Germany but I'd prefer this.

3. Your favourite place

Soho in London

OR

Sheffield city :) South Yorkshire

4. Your favourite food

Chicken Katsy Curry...yum yum yum.

5. Your Favorite drink

6. Your favourite pet

Dennis! R.I.P Tootsie!

7. Your favorite colour combination

I like them all!

8. Your favourite piece of clothing

My black vest top and pj bottoms..they keep my warm!

9. Your favourite TV show

Peep Show!!! <3 align="center">10. First name of your significant other

Charlie :)

11. Your first job

Ticket sales assisant at Wimbledon Theatre.

12. Your dream job

Film Censorship!

13. A bad habit you have

Hahaha...speaks for itself.

14. Your worst fear

Death

15. What you'd like to do before you die

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xoxo...gossiprose.

I was bored I'm sorry

2008-10-08T11:55:00.000-07:00

Wouldyou ever date anyone with tattoos?

I would but I don't really like them.

Did anything brighten up your day today?

Erm...I like this tv programme called True Blood haha. Talking to Charlie on the phone. Buying a twister. Buying a notepad. Small things :p

How are you feeling at this exact moment?

Bored/Tired/Anxious because I want to read this material but can't be arsed.

Do you ever wonder how other people see you?

Yes

Are you taller than most?

Smaller than most.

When was the last time you sang an ENTIRE song?
Erm I tried to sing Paperboats today haha but it didn't really work

Do you like the last person who sent you a myspace message?
I'm not sure

What is one thing that is currently bothering you?
my dissertation

What was the last thing that you ate/drank?
Some of my mum's curry

Do you realize it when you curse?
yes

Who did you last talk to in person?
my mum

Last phonecall?
Charlie

Do you think places like New York City and California are overrated?
No, maybe California though.

Whose graduation will you be attending next?
MINE!

Do you think people who wear jeans in the summer are crazy?
no

What was the last test you took & what for?
film studies, not sure what it was about though, maybe genre and cultural context?

What did you do yesterday?
I came back from Phoebe's place

What is the weather like today?
Warm, suprisingly

Do you own any bright underwear?
haha yes

How fast have you ever driven?
i dont drive

Where did your last hug take place?
Today with Tom

What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Seeing Charlie

If someone looked ON your bed, what wouldthey find?
Erm my duvet, like warm sheet thing, water bottle, bit of paper, module reader, notebook, phone, a sock, pillows. Cowwie.

What is the last movie you watched?
how to lose friends and alienate people

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
yar

What are you listening to rightnow?
True Blood

What were you doing at 1am this morning?
Sleeping

Whats your favorite candy?
Erm jelly tots

Who was the last person you called?
Charlie

What do you think about little dogs?
They're cute haha

Do you watch Saved By The Bell?
I used to!

Do you drink bottled water?
Yar

Have you been to New York City?
Nope, I'm going in May

Do you know anyone who always carries a knifewith them wherever they go?
probably

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
both of them are dead

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
Used the loo

When was the last time something bothered you?
today

Who was the last celebrity someone told you you looked like?
erm Abbey from ER

How much cash do you have on you?
A bit more or less than £2

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
I'm really going to miss you

How did you and your number 2 become friends?
Whos my number 2? Probably Juan. I asked him if it was his e-mail adress on this heart shaped bit of people, for Deirdre's sake, who followed them and spoke to him and Claudio in Spanish.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a R?
No

What do you do on the weekends?
Go shopping, hanging out with my friends, Charlie, my family. Who knows.

LAST PERSON:

To send you a Myspace message?
cant remember

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine

Ever kissed anyone 18 or older?
Yes

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
Yes

What are you doing tomorrow?
I have uni from 10-12, then I might be going out with Phoebe and Tomio.

Do you like to cuddle?
Yesh :)

What are your plans for this weekend?
I have none, god I'm sad

Did you ever lose a friend?
Yesh

What are you doing right now?
Watching true blood.

Ever go camping?
Yeah we used to go lots when I was younger.

Do you have a dog?
Yesh! Dennis!

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
the fact I dont have a job and no money

Have you spoken to your mother today?
Yesh

When was the last time you talked to your siblings?
Like a few minutes ago I just made a random noise at my brother

Where were you an hour ago?
Erm in the bath maybe.

Do you have any tattoo/piercings?
Ears.

Do you drink water?
Yeah

When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
Monday

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
No, I notice awkward situations and I'm like oh poor them but no haha

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yesh!!!

Are you too forgiving?
Probably.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Hahaha sometimes I'm just like ehhh why are you so unfriendly.

What was the last thing you cried about?
I missed Charlie

Last person you blocked on MySpace?
I don't think I've ever blocked anyone.

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and your sure they won't tell anyone?
Yar

Who did you hangout with yesterday?
Phoebe

How many hours did you sleep last night?
7 I guess

Have you ever cried while in the shower?
Yar

When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong?
Erm...I'm not sure.

Last four texts in your phone are from:
I deleted my inbox so I have none hahaha.

19.09.08

2008-09-21T03:14:00.000-07:00

Sooooo...Friday was mine and Charlie's two year anniversary.

We were meant to stay in a really nice hotel in Waterloo but both of us were kind of ill, haha, so he cryptically text me saying for us to meet at 3 in South Wimbledon.

I got him a Mr.Happy t-shirt, an ipod shuffle (I put songs which reminded me of him on there) and made him a book with photos and lyrics and stuff.

We went to Leicster Square and swapped pressies, he got me gossip girl series 1 (yay) haha and he gave me the book of Wicked and inside were tickets to see the play that night! I kind of knew he'd got me tickets because he was really indiscreet bless him hahaha, or maybe I'm just a really good detective ;D...

but anyway we went to a Mexican resturant called Chiquito's and I got kind of tipsy on a strawberry daqori (it was soooo strong) and then we went to the Trochadero and bought sweets for the play and wasted loads of money on games :p

After that we headed to the theatre and play was so good! I loved it up hahaha, if anyone ever felt like they were different or just like an outsider than you'll definatley love it up. Though you have to be open to the idea of witches hahahaha.

So ye it was good times! :) Wooo!

Hehe ye below is a video of us on the way to Leicster Square haha! I cut my fringe myself that morning so yeah hahaha.

Clickity click

2008-09-08T08:59:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-ojbmjvJt8

The Conversation.

2008-08-07T11:33:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xby9d4XtXM

If I wrote a song, this is what it would be.
This is how I feel when I'm sad.

Do you remember how we met?
Silhouetted by the lights...
You were drunk and tried to take a mental picture with your hands
I was thinking about that
And a bunch of other things
Stop looking at the floor...
I need to pour out this expansive dose of words.

I can't explain...
I need to be alone.

I know the timing isn't great
But these things, you just can't plan.
I just need a little time
So I can find myself again
'Cause I get buried underneath
All the things they think you are
And I'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt
To be left out

I had a pocket full of dreams
But I gave them all to you
Now I think I want them back
So can you tell me if I'm crazy or confused?
Don't ever change
The way you are
I've never loved anyone more.

100 questions, stolen from Katie

2008-06-02T10:19:00.000-07:00

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. “never say your going if you don't plan to start'. My book of quotes
Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, what can you touch? hocus pocus dvd
Before you started this survey, what were you doing? Watching America's Next Top Model
What is the last thing you watched on TV? The News, but then I left
Without looking, guess what time it is. About 6.25?
Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 6.28...oh yeah!
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? The tv
When did you last step outside? Yesterday
Did you dream last night? Yes but I can't remember it
Do you remember your dreams? Sometimes
When did you last laugh? Today at my dog probably
Do you remember why / at what? :p
What is on the walls of the room you are in? Erm some collages my friends made for me, a lot of photos of friends...the guys from peep shows photos, some pictures, donnie darko and the cures postcards, foo fighters gig tickets, tube map- old and new...poster of becoming jane and hallam foe.
Seen anything weird lately? My dog threw up grass. That was pretty weird
What do you think of this quiz? A time waster.
What is the last film you saw? I saw three in one day - sex and the city, iron man and indian jones. But I also watched goodluck chuck online and it was dirty!
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Somewhere near Charlie
If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? A flat! And stuff for my family.
Can you tell us something intresting? Erm an elephant can't jump.
If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? Hmm, I'd make it easier to travel around!
Do you like to dance? Yar!
Would you ever consider living abroad? Kinda
Does your name make any interesting anagrams? 9 ) Arrest Crush Ore haha
Who made the last incoming call on your phone? Erm Charlie
How many friends do you have? A lot
Who is your best friend? I have more than one
Type of music you like most? Indie/Acoustic/Rock
Type of music you dislike most? Heavy Metal, I hate alphabeat A LOT
Are you listening to music right now? No but alphabeat were just advertised online :p
What colour is your bedroom carpet? I don't have carper
If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do? Change the loft in to a room.
What was the last thing you bought? Erm a taxi home...does that count?
Have you ever ridden on a motorbike? No
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? No
Do you have a garden? Yar
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? I barely know the first line.
What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? Usually, I need to pee or MOOOREEEE SLEEEEEP
If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? Shia LeBouff :p or lebuff as I call him
Who sent the last text message you received? Charlie!
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? A book shop or hmv OR topshop OR urban outfitters :p
What time is bed time? Whenever I feel tired
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? Yar when I was younger.
How many tattoos do you have? No
If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one? No
What did you do for your last birthday? Clubbing and revolutions
Do you carry a donor card? No
Who was the last person you ate dinner with? Erm...well at home with my family.
Is the glass half empty or half full? Neither haha
What's the farthest-away place you've been? Greece
When's the last time you ate a home-grown tomato? Never
Have you ever won a trophy? Erm a Rory Award for being kind or something
Are you a good cook? Meh
Do you know how to pump your own gas? I don't drive
If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be? Erm...mark and jez from peep show
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? Yar
Do you touch-type? Yar
What's under your bed? Videos and dust.
Do you believe in love at first sight? Lust
Think fast, what do you like right now? People
Where were you on Valentine's Day? At home I think
What time do you get up? 2.30 hahahaha
What was the name of your first pet? Bluie the bird
How many pets do you have now? well 2 and countless fish
Is there anything going on this weekend? Erm I'm looking for a new phone
How are you feeling right now? Sleepy
Do you have a religion? Nah
What is your golden rule? Be nice.
If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people? I would tell my close friends straight away but others no
Who would you tell first? My mum
What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema? Indiana Jones
Do you sing in the shower? No
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Didn't we have this question?
What do you do most when you are bored? Go online
What do you do for a living? Student
Do you love your job? I don't have one.
Do your parents/grandparents still work? They are all dead.
What do they do? Well my grandad thought in the war and I think he was a constuction worker and my other grandad was a chef in the war. I'm not sure about the rest, possibly house wives?
Which came first the chicken or the egg? The egg
How many keys on your key ring? 2
Where would you retire to? Cornwall
What kind of car do you drive? I don’t have a car.
What was your first car? Never had a car
What are your best characteristics? Kindness, friendlyness and caringness
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? Erm Greece again, Norway, Germany, most of Europe...Malaysia to see nessie!
What kind of books do you like to read? Hmm comedys, science fiction, love storys, classics...all sorts.
What super power would you want? Hmm, to fly? Never to die and heal people?
What is your favourite time of the day? The start
Where did you grow up? In London.
How far away from your birthplace do you live now? Well I was born in Westminister so a tube ride away?
Where were your parents born? England
Are you a morning person or a night owl? Depends.
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Nope
Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows? Yes
Who is you historical inspiration? Erm...I don't think I have one :p
How many rings before you answer the phone? Depends
What is your best childhood memory? Meh
What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? Only had one offical for the theare but the voice over company was fun
Any new and exciting things that you would like to share? Nope.
What is most important in life? To find happiness
What Inspires You? People.

'A mermaid found a swimming lad,
Picked him for her own,
Pressed her body to his body,
Laughed; and plunging down
Forgot in cruel happiness
That even lovers drown'

..W.B Yates is my idol..

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Subject: 100 random questions!
Date: Sat, 31 May 2008 22:04:22 +0100

Answer the questions then send it to everyone else!

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. 'And he waited, why I don't know.'
Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, what can you touch? Notepad
Before you started this survey, what were you doing? Playing Xbox 360
What is the last thing you watched on TV? Brittan's got talent
Without looking, guess what time it is 21:19
Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 21:20 lol
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? The TV
When did you last step outside? About five hours ago
Did you dream last night? no
Do you remember your dreams? not really
When did you last laugh? at question 6
Do you remember why / at what? yea at question 6
What is on the walls of the room you are in? nothing, its just all blue
Seen anything weird lately? nah, well maybe, does work count?
What do you think of this quiz? interesting, see how bored I get
What is the last film you saw? dunno was ages ago
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? Boston
If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? A new laptop
Can you tell us something intresting? No, or more to the point I dont want to
If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? Free sweetrolls for everyone!
Do you like to dance? nah
Would you ever consider living abroad? yea
Does your name make any interesting anagrams? no
Who made the last incoming call on your phone? Joe
How many friends do you have? loads
Who is your best friend? JD of course
Type of music you like most? any
Type of music you dislike most? R and B (rubbish and bollocks)
Are you listening to music right now? no
What colour is your bedroom carpet? carpet colour
If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do? my room could be bigger, it's friggin small!
What was the last thing you bought? food
Have you ever ridden on a motorbike? yer
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? mabye
Do you have a garden? yup
Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? no
What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? shit, i gotta work... again
If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? dont know!
Who sent the last text message you received? Rebecca
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? dont have one
What time is bed time? lol you have a bed time?
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? no dont intend to either
How many tattoos do you have? none
If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one? meh not on my list of things to do
What did you do for your last birthday? got fucked out of my mind
Do you carry a donor card? no
Who was the last person you ate dinner with? family
Is the glass half empty or half full? both
What's the farthest-away place you've been? Florida
When's the last time you ate a home-grown tomato? never!!!
Have you ever won a trophy? yea several still plan to get more
Are you a good cook? ... next
Do you know how to pump your own gas? this is a trick question right? lol
If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be? dunno
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? yes
Do you touch-type? sometimes
What's under your bed? a carpet
Do you believe in love at first sight? it happens, but lets be honest, it's not an every day thing now is it?
Think fast, what do you like right now? food!
Where were you on Valentine's Day? out
What time do you get up? bout 10
What was the name of your first pet? speedy
How many pets do you have now? 1
Is there anything going on this weekend?
How are you feeling right now?
Do you have a religion?
What is your golden rule?
If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people? woulddnt tell them
Who would you tell first? myslef lol
What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema? cant remember!
Do you sing in the shower? !no!
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? i swear these questions have already been asked
What do you do most when you are bored? work
What do you do for a living? work, not really living
Do you love your job? which one? nursing is okay but i dont like the hours the kids one is good but its not full time which sucks
Do your parents/grandparents still work? my parents do
What do they do? shit i dunno lol
Which came first the chicken or the egg? egg
How many keys on your key ring? 2 car and home
Where would you retire to? america maybe
What kind of car do you drive? a crap one
What was your first car? nissan, nuff said
What are your best characteristics? being crazy
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? boston agian
What kind of books do you like to read? interesting ones
Where would you want to retire to? again same question!
What is your favourite time of the day? evening
Where did you grow up? here and there
How far away from your birthplace do you live now? miles
Where were your parents born? i'd have to ask
Are you a morning person or a night owl? night time
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? no, but i can lick my elbow, ha!
Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows? yup
Who is you historical inspiration? no one
How many rings before you answer the phone? rings? i decide if the phone is worth answering by my mood,
What is your best childhood memory? mm hard pressed to think of one
What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? not much, just kids and crazy people
Any new and exciting things that you would like to share? not yet
What is most important in life? not to be a prick
What Inspires You? me

May may may may...

2008-05-20T04:05:00.001-07:00

The start of this month was really HOT.
Now it's bloody cold.
Haha.
So I met Juan and Sophie and we went for a picnic at my uni. Fun times! Me and Juan had an argument, but that's normal.

So! Liverpool! Everyone was really friendly and we stayed in a really pretty hotel. There was a year 11 prom thing going in inside and it reminded me of ours, but everyone was a lot of a lot more fashionable I have to say. We went for some crappy chinese buffet thing that was disgusting haha and did a loooot of shopping. I bought a cute dressss and a top which can be seen in the photo of me with the pink cardigan. Some guy in a lift asked me and my mum where we were from (they were Welsh, possible from Cardiff) and when we said London they said 'Not cocknies! We'd rather be stuck in the lift with...' then said something quite rude which will not be repeated haha, they were such jerks. There was a really cool resturant that was sort of desgined like a circus called circo but we didn't eat in there, just took photos, haha. The way back was insane, we had to go from Liverpool to Birmingham, then on to northampton by coach then another train to Euston then the northern line to homeeee!

Last night me, Harold and Katie went to this resturant on the kings road in which you could sit on tables that were near the roof. I got slight veritgo but it was fun. My meal was really salty but harold and katies were disgusting- I guess Harolds was nice if you like seafood. The owner was really friendly and recognised Harold from paperhcase. He also tried to nick my oyster card holder which is for breast cancer but I said no haha then felt bad because he said he was collecting them.

After we went for some cocktails and Katie met John and Ant D in Wimbledon but I didn't join them!

Roxies with the guys

2008-03-29T14:14:00.000-07:00

So the other night a bunch of us went to revolutions and then roxies. It was a bit crazy, I got very drunk and danced a lot haha. Me, Phoebe, Tom and Richard decided to are going fishing...I am not in a very typy mood today so I will just post some photos :). Oh, and a video! I forgot to mention...Conor came.

Stolen from Vanessa

2008-03-12T06:28:00.000-07:00

1. What was your dream during your childhood?
Haha, I wanted to work in a holiday camp type place and entertain people i.e sing and dance on stage for their amusement. Fun times :p

2. Do you like rainy days or sunny days? Why?
Rainy days when I'm warm and cosy. Sunny when I'm going for a picnic :p

3. Which colour do you like better? Black or White?
Black.

4. Who would you marry?
Hehe, a man :p

5. Where do you want to go most? Why?
I want to go to wagamama's because I'm hungry. I could do with a nap actually.

6. Which part of yourself do you love the most?
there is a lot of me...

7. When you encounter a sad moment, what do you do?
if I'm alone I cry, if I'm with someone I'll have a rant about it and then possibly cry.

8. What are you afraid of losing the most?
my memory/sanity

9. If you met someone you love, would you confess to him/her? Or just keep it secret, observing?
A secret. I'm shy. lol.
I did once, I went up to this ginger person and told him I liked him (eh, rosie ;p)

10. List out 3 good points of the one who tagged you.
Well I wasn't tagged but Vanessa is smart, playful and pretttyyyyyyyy.

11. What are the requirements that you wish for your other half?
I go for smart people.

12. Up to now, what is the moment you regret most?
Jason Willoughby.

13. Which type of person do you hate most?
Pretentious bastards. Manipulative witches.

14. What is your ambition?
to be rich and happy

15. Would you rather be someone else at this very moment?
Someone schleeping.

16. If you can have 2 dreams to come true, what would it be?
to be rich and to change things

17. What do you think is most important in your life?
friends and family

18. Who’s your favourite cartoon character?
Stewie from Family guy.

19. What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?
eat a hell load of food.

20. The most worthwhile decision you’ve ever made in your life so far?
who knows...

p.s haha Vanessa, Dexter is ginger also....recurring theme :p x

Not so f***ing big house party

2008-02-17T11:35:00.000-08:00

Soooooooooooo! House parties rule, huh? Hehehe.
Phoebe and her flat mates threw one last night. Before hand me and Charlie went for a meal, then at the bus stop I kept sneezing so some woman was like 'you must be allegic to him hahahahaha'...yeah...funny...:p
We headed to Putney spoons and met up with Phoebe, Katie, Juan, Juan Jose and Harold. Played I never and Jenga, fun times! Then we met Kyle. John was already at her flat. Richard and Tom came later on.
At first it was a bit awkward but things started to flow and we all played I never again, put on some music from Juan's ipod. Nik came. Stuff went down. Revelations occured.
It was fun though! We danced loads and after me, Charlie, Harold and Kyle left we saw Anton, Jason and Nicholas outside smoking with a 12 year old they didn't know, who was on a bike. Hahaha. They kept asking if there was weed or cocaine at the party. Nope. Nada. No way.
Photo time!

Goth Night

2008-02-14T05:04:00.001-08:00

Okay so...
I'm housebound. I sprained my ankle when I fell off the pavement.
Yes, I was drunk.
Ha! Well anyway, I went up to Sheffield and it was goth night at a club so we all decided to dress up. We were scared they would think we're imposters and burn us with cigarettes, but it was all good!

Here are some photos because I am too tired to write :p
I like the same btw. I just added gloves. And the girl is Vicky, the tall guy is Matt and the small guy is Daniel.

Emoness

2008-02-01T11:55:00.000-08:00

'The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart'

Basically...there are three types of emo's.

Type 1) The person who listen to My Chemical Romance/Panic! At the disco/Taking Back Sunday and enjoy hearing people scream about broken hearts and pain. This kind of emoness potrays men as the ones seeking love - usually women are portrayed as neurotic seekers of love, but in the world of emo's...nah mate, it's the men.

Then there is type 2)...the kind of person who says 'I'm feeling a bit emo today'. This type is me. Someone who is feeling down, wants to listen to normal music that isn't so much 'screamo' but about broken hearts and wallow in sorrow, wearing a frown, like pierrot the clown.

Then there's finally, type 3) - the happy emo. The person who dresses sort of indie but has the dramatic eye make up and big hair, the converse boots teamed with skinny jeans...the person who has the image of an emo without any of the emotion attatched.

Hence, my rant on emoness has finished.

Paris!

2008-01-19T05:56:00.000-08:00

So! On Friday the 11th of January, 2008, me and Charlie set off for Paris! It was £135 altogether for 3 nights stay in a 3 star b & b including Eurostar travel. Pretty hardcore.

On the first day we slept for 5 hours when we arrived, because out train left at 5.25 in the morning. My Dad was supposed to be giving us a lift to St.Pancras but his car broke down half way, so we had to get a taxi. In the evening we explored the area and went for a meal.

The next day we went to the Lourve! It was so much fun, but the mona lisa was crap, I have to say. All around the lourve they had soldiers with machine guns, it was pretty hardcore.

On Sunday we went to the Champs Elysse, which is basically a mix of Oxford Street and Sloane Street, the Eiffel tower and the arc du triomphe. Charlie went up the Eiffel without me, and I kept getting harassed by Gypsies. He was gone a whole hour, haha!

On our last day we went to Notre Dame, back to the Champs and visited the Eiffel tower at night. Here are some photossss!

New year looms.

2007-12-30T15:30:00.000-08:00

:)

I have to say I just read Vanessa's blog and it inspired me...so :p !

So. 2007. What an odd year it's been...from having Charlie just around the corner at the local college, to miles away in a whole different city. To hating university to enjoying it and the great people who go there. From always thinking friendships would last to realising that some just start as starlight and fade to glimmers...

It hasn't been the greatest year. 2006 was epic: College with the coolest friends (Dan, Sadia etc), gardening club with the coolest people(Vanessa, Phoebe, Nik, Ben, Vasant, Tall James, Darek), shopping with the coolest girls (Vanessa, Phoebe), a hilarious holiday to the isle of wight and generally having a ball.
2007...frustrating deadlines, missing a person I'll never ever forget and being in denial about her being in a whole different country, the slipping away of Juan and numerous trips to Sheffield. But it's also has some good times...Random trips to Brighton, Dublin, cocktails and glitter at roxies and revolutions, the makings of a lolzy relationship with Tom and the re-evaluated and appreciated knowledge of Katie and Harold.
It makes me wonder what 2008 will bring...the dreaded age of being a 20 year old looms. When asked my age I still automatically reply 18 and I don't even think it's incorrect. Which friendships will finally leave forever, which will remain strong and which will develop...

Robyn- Be mine It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain...
the best song I've heardi n 2007 :D

I guess I will post some photos of my favourite memories, like bessha, and if I can find a quiz I'll answer it too :) ... but happy new years everyone! Hope it's the best one yet!

age turned this year?	19
best memory?	too many!
worst memory?	Ahhh
did you stay in a relationship?	yup
great people you met?	Tom, Lawrence, Hayley
longest road trip?	Brighton!
best place visited?	Ooo maybe Sheffield
worst place visited?	Dublin was great but also crap for other reasons
earned any new names?	er monkey spunker, lovely
biggest challenge this year?	long distance relationship!
how many moving violations?	None!
how many parking tickets did you get?	Nope, I don't drive
how many subjects did you take?	Well just film studies
what were your grades?	One A the rest C's, pft.
did you moon a cop?	No! Haha!
new best friend?	Tom is a close one
person you wish you became closer to?	No one
any awards?	Nope
did you sleep through your alarm?	No
did you lose or gain weight?	Gain, argh haha
did you break any bones this year?	No
sports played?	None
what do you hope for 2008?	Loveliness!
new love for food?	It's always been there ;D haha
kiss anyone?	Yes :D
dance in the rain?	I may have briefly...
have you changed?	A bit, yeah
how was your birthday?	It was fine :p
any snow this year?	Yes! Omg so much fun! On Christmas eve's eve it snowed for like 2 minutes in knightsbridge!
did you lose any family members?	Yar, my nan
did you disappoint anyone close?	Probably
did you sleep under the stars?	No
pretend to be happy?	Yar
did you keep your new years resolution?	I didn't have any
did you leave the country?	Yup, Brighton
are you moving in the new year?	Not that I know of
did you lose anything expensive?	Only money
learn anything new about youreslf?	That I'm a lot less motivated then I realised
did you find out who your true friends were?	Defiantly
made a change in your life?	I guess so
did you stay up til sunrise?	Not on purpose to watch it
do anything you regret?	Not really
go to any parties?	Kinda
make much money?	Yup, but spent it all too
did you keep your job?	No I quit
did you attend a funeral?	Yup
gain any new family members?	No
get a new car?	No
develop any health problems	My asthma has gotten worse :(
end up in hospital?	I had to go to get an asthma pump, haha
attend a concert?	Yar, good shoes!
travel out of state?	Er I'm not sure what that means but if it's what I think then no
read any books?	Yup, including the new Harry Potter, what a disappointment, I'm in denial about it.
sign up to facebook?	Yar!
eat anything that you never had before?	Erm possibly!
did anyone develop feelings for you?	Maybe they strengthened.
attend church?	No
favourite day of the year?	All :p
least favourite day of the year?	None!

long time no type eh eh eh

2007-12-10T09:40:00.000-08:00

Alllooooooo everyone.
I have been extremely busy, hence why NOW I am blogging right in the middle of the chaos to distract myself. Ha.

I will write about Sheffield! And when I went to the LBG night there (lesbian, bisexual, gay). Coincidentally, they call it Climax. Think of that what you will!

So Sadia and Sophie were in town staying with Dan, I was staying with Charlie and Lukas and Dominika are Dan's friends. We all met in the SU bar and had a few cheap drinks then headed for the cheesiest night of music ever...they played bewitched, spice girls and five. All my favourites, ha.

I got quite drunk which is always fun! We were trying to guess if this guy called Tall Paul was gay or not...(he really is very tall, almost as tall as me even when I was standing on the podium...maybe about 6"9?)

Here are the photos!
But yay Sheffield of cool! Sadia got chatted up by the guy in the fountain photo that we saw earlier that day in the CLUB, which was way bizzare! No lesbians came on to me though, damn it! Hehehe until next time...xxxx

19th Birthday :D

2007-07-13T14:08:00.000-07:00

Hehe so my 19th...

I got ready at Phoebe's house and arrived at Tottenham Court Road at 9pm to go to our famous vodka bar, and not having eaten anything but soup since 4pm, got drink after two drinks.
I got hideously pissed so all the photos of me are disgusting.
And AGAIN it was a suprise birthday party, so they're were quite a few people there.

Apparently I cried for two hours because Charlie accused me of flirting with Juan, who was also drunk. But apart from that there is not much to report, just photographs haha.

Okay so here are the photos, I look awful in every single one so be prepared.

So today it is raining and all I have for company is my fish (one of which eyes has been bitten off but it's fellow lover) my dog, who is sleeping and my cat who is probably prowling around somewhere. I'm meant to be meeting Juan but I think he might forget about it, or call me too late...

A Tuesday Evening in Brighton

2007-06-06T09:58:00.000-07:00

So last night I went to Brighton for the evening with Tom, Phoebe and Richard. They picked me up about 7 and we got there for 8.30. On the way down we cam whored with Tom's amazing camera and drank some Smirnoff ice and doritos, plus custard creams.
We went to the pier and everything was closed, so we sat inside the dodgems and then on the horse carousel and just looked at the pretty view.
After that we went to find a cash point which charged bloody £1.75 to use, pft! And it turns out I didn't even have to get out money anyway as I had enough for a bag of chips and some tango. I put way too much salt on them so they were icky.
We chilled on the beach and spoke about the sad state of homeless people in Britain then went home about 11.45! I got home at 1.05 am a happy lady, but I had hayfever so was sneezing like a crazy lady. Richard was sweet enough to give me half his tissue as he was suffering too. We listened to the Killers on the way back and saw an owl.
So when I got home I wasn't that tired, so I came online for a bit then as I decided to get in to a bed, a fucking wasp decided to attack my room. I was like how the hell did it get in, but my window was wide open because my Dad had opened it earlier, grrr. So I sprayed it with deodorant, which didn't really do anything but make it less hyperactive and make me sneeze more, so I had to sleep downstairs :( but ah well! Here are some photos!

I'm not dead

2007-05-20T12:23:00.001-07:00

Hehe hello, although I haven't updated in a while, I am still about. I'm sure I was missed eh!
Anyway, I might as well carry on with current events, such as Friday! I met pup with Harry, Katie and it was meant to be Kyle too but he had to do some tutorage or something.
Anyway, we started off in Camden and got some disgusting Chinese food because Katie acted on impulse, tsk tsk, then we went to oxford street and me and Katie tried on some dresses! Here is the fashion show, and other such photos, I will need peoples opinions.

Katie is such a skinny lady she makes me look disgustingly large, but lets not talk about it. I look quite awful in all the photos, but ah well. We went to the Spaghetti house in Covent Garden and had some good foods, and that was about it! Well, that was fun! Byeeee :p x

Vodka Bars, nandos, dancing and brighton

2007-04-02T11:40:00.000-07:00

Hehe hello! So on Monday I think it was, me Phoebe Juan and Tom (Bob for Vanessa) went to our favourite vodka place in Soho. I decided to invite Juan in a last minute Whim because I was sick and tired of being hurt about all the things he said. I just thought, fuck it, lets just get pissed.
And we did! Not much happened except Juan got really drunk :p and we found a partaloo in the middle of the road and pissed in it. AND we ate a lot of cheese...hmm what else happend? I apparently snore now! So Phoebe couldn't sleep and kept waking me hahaha! Vanessa did I snore when I stayed at yours? Also that Sean guy is so fit in your photos!!!

In some of these photos you can see us trying to be Japanese :p

Heathrow and Sophie

2007-03-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

So on Friday night Charlie's cousin Katy invited us to go bowling with them and her friends.
Katy is 17, blonde (though she dyed her hair brown) and amazingly pretty. Her best friend is a girl called Cara, who coincidently turns out to be the cousin of a guy I used to fancy called Matthew Cox. Me and Vanessa saw him play a gig in Leicester Square once.

So I was like ye sure I'll go bowling, woo. However, it turned out they were going all the way to bloody Heathrow, which is about 1 hour and 15 minutes from Kingston, but 2 hours and 15 minutes from my house. I met Charlie in Kingston and off we went, passing through the mean streets of Harrow which I'm sure we can all agree is lovely :p

We turned up and immediately I felt under dressed. I was wearing a blue cardigan and jeans but Katy was wearing a dress and those weirdo furry boots girls wear, Cara was wearing a black dress and skinny jean type leggings and Vicky was wearing shorts with fishnet tights. They all hugged me in welcome and asked how old I was (I think they thought I was younger than they were) and much to my dismay they were joined by a group of chavs who they had met at the place. And they were all drinking (illegally as they're all underage :p).
All the guys were trying to get in there with Katy basically, until a bunch of them left as Simon was the one who 'got in there'.

At the bar, ( I thought I needed a few stiff drinks to get through the night ), Katy came up to us and asked us to look after a student who lived with her for the week. She had tagged along and was standing in the corner like a lemon, so I agreed to look after her. She was was originally born in Milan, moved to Rome then to the Netherlands so she could speak Italian, Dutch and English. She came to England to brush up on her communication skills. She was a secretary, 20 and you could clearly see she disapproved of Katy's behaviour and the whole British culture. She told me and Charlie that us Britain's always ask people how they were without caring of the answer, which is true I suppose. For a while I was the one standing there like a lemon because I don't think she realised me and Charlie were going out, so she was completely ignoring me and talking to him the whole time. Hrmph. Me and Charlie started discussing who was pretty in our sixth form and I was like 'oh sorry, you must feel left out' to Dani but she said she just found it beautiful how I spoke which was nice. She looks well nice in the photos but she doesn't really look like this in real life :p. I look awful!

On Wednesday I went to Warren Street to visit Soph. Apparently she had been struggling on her course (Scandanavian Studies) and hadn't been to a lecture in two weeks so I went to see if she was okay. I arrived at Warren Street and was greeted by Richard who told me that Sophie was held up as she had to see our History teacher about her grade, so we went to a cafe around the corner called 'Coco Verde' and had some Brazilian drink. Sophie later told me he wanted to 'take me back to his' but she was so disturbed by the flirtatious undertones in it that she refused to let him :p hahaha.

We spoke about stuff, I told him about Juan, he told me he thought Soph hated him. He also hates his course, which is Icelandic studies, but what ya gonna do :p

Sophie turned up and we went to a Chinese buffet ( 5 pound 10p as much as you can eat with a soft drink) and we just spoke about stuff in general. I kind of struggled for things to say. We went to the cinema to see Becoming Jane (2 for 1 Orange wednesday!) and I cried :( hahaha. I'd already seen it but I saw it again and it was just as heartbreaking. I'll explain what its about:

Basically it's about Jane Austin's love life and how she based her book pride and prejudice on it, except the ending is how she wanted her love life to be and not what actually happened. She has a very poor family and they want her to marry this rich guy, but she's in love with this poor man who gets a monthly allowance from his uncle which he uses to support his family back in Ireland. He asks his uncle if he can wed Jane, but he refuses so him and Jane never marry. At the end after like 30 or 40 years Jane sees his again and he has named his eldest daughter after her.

It may not sound that sad but it really is because she never married because she always loved him with all her heart and no one else would do. Aww welling up just thinking about it :p

poem + lyircs

2007-03-24T14:04:00.000-07:00

Fireworks
Amy Lowell

You hate me and I hate you
And we are so polite, we two!
But whenever I see you, I burst apart
And scatter the sky with my blazing heart.
It spits and sparkles in the stars and balls,
Buds into roses – and flares, and falls.
Scarlet buttons, and pale green disks,
Silver spirals and asterisks,
Shoot and tremble in a mist
Peppered with mauve and amethyst.
I shine in the windows and light up the trees,
And all because I hate you, if you please.
And when you meet me, you rend asunder
And go up in a flaming wonder
Of saffron cubes, and crimson moons,
And wheels all amaranths and maroons.
Golden lozenges and spades
Arrows of malachites and jades,
Patens of copper, azure sheaves.
As you mount, you flash in the glossy leaves.
Such fireworks as we make, we two!
Because you hate me and I hate you.

sorry I just really liked this so thought I'd include it!

'Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry'

'Hold me down' by Motion City Soundtrack. Everytime I hear this song it makes me really sad...I'll bold the bits that I relate to :p

I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and ' Don't Cares',
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.

I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, don't take it the wrong way,
I love you, however, you hold me down

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom
How will I break the news to you?
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..

St.Patricks Day

2007-03-18T13:53:00.000-07:00

I was given an old photo of me from year 12, I look so nice! What happend...:p also I have some photos of my new tops, I look fat but we can all ignore that :) I'm not model ye hahaha

Haha I found an old extract from my previous blog...I was angry at Charlie :p and it talks about John and Pablo. Aww how sad....hmm

I came in late today, due to the fact I had to finish my film coursework this morning. I'm glad I did it though. I spoke to Luke, he gave me his CD back. It felt like he wanted me to go away though, haha bless him. I hope he doesn't find me scary. So yeah had a go at Charlie for being a prat in general and shouting gossip in the lunch hall. I had a chat with John. I really like him. He's so lovely, but he gives me this look sometimes and it sort of breaks my heart for some reason. It really tugs at my heartstrings. I'd never want to hurt the lad, he's far too cool. So double film, interesting, not much happend. Theology was cancelled, walked to Wimbledon with the Pablo Bean and it was all very interesting, haha. Must flee now. x

Well anyway, on Friday I went to Ireland to celebrate paddy's day, woo! So we arrived at the hotel at 11pm at night. We went to Bumratty in Shannon which is in County Clare. We had booked a room for three beds but it only had two so we asked to be moved. They moved us to a 'holiday home' which is basically a cottage but part of the ceiling had fallen down, so they moved us to another cottage and we got all our money paid back for the trip.
Not much happened as always in my blogs, there was a lot of complaining, singing on the Friday night and I saw a really nice coat but my boobs were too big for it, hahaha DAMN IT. Well, here are some photos...I look awful but that's no different to normal eh :p

Also to Vanessa! You look so skinny, you bitch. GIVE ME YOUR BROWN DRESS I LOVE IT x

Hastings

2007-03-02T13:36:00.000-08:00

THIS time last Friday I was in the seaside resort of HASTINGS. The only thing I knew, and still know about it is there was a battle there in 1066 involving William the Conquer and the Normans.
I went with Charlie and his family, including his brothers partner. So this is my first ever 'lets go on holiday with the boyfriends family' adventure. Woo. To be honest not much happened, we played monopoly...wasted money in the arcades, walked along the beach. That's about it. Oh yes, I found a maggot on my air bed and had to stamp on it about 10 times to make sure there weren't any more. Ew. Here are some photos!

The view from my bedroom
Er I don't know why I'm sitting on the floor, but I did fall over on the pebbles and hit my head :p...

What else have I been up to? HMM. I went to the pub with my friend Tom from uni, Phoebe and Charlie. We had some baileys and tequila but sadly I did not get drunk, only tipsy. We later went to Nandos and nicked most of Charlies burger hehe.
Well basically I really like this photo but Charlie said it made me look stoned, so I was wondering what other people think :p if my love for it is silly hahaha. THE LOVE FOR MY FACE.

This is a v bad photo but what ya gonna do :p

Juan called me the other day and his number was withheld so I answered it. He made me do this questionarre for him and I had to say good things about him and bad things. It was awkward. Hmm.

Well that is it, sorry if it was boring but I am pretty sure Vanessa is my only reader so you can forgive me, right? Haha. Bye byeee! x

Chinese New Year

2007-02-20T02:52:00.000-08:00

So on Sunday me and Charlie went to Leicester Square to celebrate Chinese new year. I was thinking about the time I went there two years a go with Vanessa, Juan and Rory (the one and only time I met him in real life) and all my friends. Oh so how much has changed...
A poor man who thought I was taking a photo of him when all I really wanted to do was get the decorations. The stupid policemen kept telling everyone to move to the next left turning so we could get in to china town, but it was impossible.

well anyway, the place was crazy and busy and I couldn't see anything and people kept throwing stupid firecracker things and it scared me so in the end we just ended up eating in T.G.I Fridays and getting the bus the whole way back to Kingston. It was kinda a wasted journey but ah well :p

Today I received my letter from Vanessa! I HAVE NOTED that she said I never talk about uni, so I have decided to tell you about the people in my class. Due to the wonders of face book, and the fact I am a stalker, I will supply you with a lot of photos of the people I'm talking about. Woohoo.

SO my first friend was Andres, who sits in front of me. He's Spanish, lives in Shepard's bush and is quite shy I think. He sits next to Lee who always makes you feel good because he laughs when you're trying to be funny :p
The first person who attempted to sit next to me is Sarah. I later found out that she lives with Khema and they are best friends, so that was a big coincidence. Here is Sarah with Khema:

My actual REAL friend is called Tom. We bonded over the fact we both live near Morden, so we get the bus to uni when we go in and generally just hang out. He's a really nice person and quite funny too, though his friends are like emo/rockers so they scare me.
Next up is Hayley. She worries me because for unknown reasons she is center of attention in class. I think she just aims to please sorta thing, she always knows all the answers. I used to think she was really pretty but then I was like she looks a bit like a Gofer, and I felt mean about it :p Tom well fancies her, and he commented upon the fact that she wore a pink bra with a white shirt, which I think we can all agree is never a good look. This is Hayley on the right.

EMILY sits across the other side of the class to me, so I've never spoken to her in real life. However, I have noted that she likes the nightmare before christmas and she owns the same pair of underwear that I do. Thats what low trousers will do for ya :p ... Tom also thinks she's 'buff' but that she acts like she has a stick up her arse, which is lovely.

SO YES, as I have decided I will probably be arrested for putting up these photos without asking permission, I better stop now. Hehe bye bye!

p.s VANESSA, Juan has been harassing me your phone number but I don't have it!

Shopping in London...

2007-02-18T05:09:00.000-08:00

IS SO STRESSFUL.
However, I did return with a few items...

Metro

2007-02-13T14:13:00.000-08:00

First things first...
I have just seen Claudio's photo and all I can say is PHWOARRRRR!!!!!

*ahem* need to recover after that photo hahaha
OKAY SO I DECIDED that although MY ONE FRIEND AT UNI, Tom, is great, I needed to branch out and visit my uni's nightclub 'the fez'. It is only a ten minute walk from Phoebe's house, so she kindly said I could stay over. She was down on the guestlist, but Mark Farthing and Charlie weren't so there was no way they were getting in.
Beforehand we went to trust spoons, drank some drinks...I got a bit tipsy. Tom (aka Bob) joined us and we decided to go to Metro at Tottenham Court road instead...sadly on the way there I needed to piss so badly I made Charlie get off and gatecrash a closing restaurant with me.

OKAY I am not explaning this very well, basically : Me, Tom (Bob), Charlie and Phoebe headed to METRO, an indie nightclub in the heart of London. The night was themed 'I bet you look good on the dancefloor' so there were a lot of people there on the pull and a lot of posing people. A lot of damn attractive women and very cute indie boys. By this time it was 1am so I was very tired, but Phoebe insisted on staying because she was drunk :p ... so we ended up staying until 3am. After we all headed to subway, I didn't want anything but Phoebe did. She started chatting up a Spanish rocker infront of us, and he bought her 12inch subway for her! She then started chatting up a burger dude who was from Slovakia and was in a band, which he invited us to go see.

HOWEVER, disaster struck when we all run for our bus BUT the bus driver took one look at me and Phoebe and said 'THIS IS NOT A RESTURANT' and refused to let us on the bus. I looked at him and was like 'it isn't illegal to eat on a bus, it doesn't say it anywhere, let us on, come on it's snowing and 4am! PLEASE!' but he simple repeated 'THIS IS NOT A RESTURANT' and nearly murdered Charlie as one of his feet was on the bus and one off, and he started driving off. Charlie refused to get off so the driver pressed the panic button, so we hastily gave up.

I was so happy it was snowing, I was like YAYYYY...it did take me and Phoebe 40 minutes to walk home in it though. We got home at 5.30 and I got up ay 8.30 for uni the next day. Which I was late for.

VANESSA: If you think I don't wear make up anymore :p...take a look at these photos...MAKE UP OVER LOAD! Aww ye I was just thinking about this valentines day, how things were different! You left and me Claudio and Juan went bowling, Juan throwing his bowling ball in the air and nearly smashing a screen. I remember this was one of the happiest days of my life. If only things were so nice and innocent like that now :(...if only you were in England! Hehe okay enough with this emotion...PHOTO TIME!...

Haha hello make up!...
me and Phoebe dancing, what an awful sight...
us all looking awful in the snowme and Charlie after the leavers ball, just after we kissed for the first time. My shoes are off because my feet were bleeding :p...I see he is holding my hand, I so don't remember that!

a drunken night in wimbledonh

2007-02-06T04:24:00.000-08:00

On Friday night me, Phoebe, Jason and Aidan decided to go to the pub, as we are the only people we know left in London so we decided we had to stick together...HOWEVER, additional people we're invited: Juan Jose, Louise and Luke, Matt Steel and Anthony Godden.

Matt Steel asked me to travel the world with him once, but I'm not sure if he was joking or not...hahaha.

HMM so as Weatherspoons now bans trainers and charged 3 quid to get in on a friday night, so we decided to go to the hand and racquet. I really didn't want to go because it's so expensive, but when we got in there, there was a 3 drinks fot 6 pound offer so that was fine by me ;)

Louise and Luke are going out. It was awkward at one point when Luke winked at me and licked his lips and Louise saw and got angry at him. I was like oh dear...
So in the toilet Louise was telling me and Phoebe that Luke and her were having their one year anniversary on valentines day, and what did we think hey should do. There was another really pretty, fashionable blonde girl in the loo and she started speaking to us:

Blondie: Hey, what are you talking about, involve me!
Me: Er...it's her one year anniversay on valentines day, isn't that sweet?
Blondie: I've never had a boyfriend.
Phoebe: Fuck off !
Blondie: No seriously, I havn't. How tragic at the age of 18...
Me: ... errr...
Phoebe: Don't worry, it fucks you up anyway. You're much better without one
Blondie : ... looks at me 'have you had a boyfriend'
Me: Yes, a few
Blondie: You don't appear to be fucked up
Me: hahaha..haha. ha.
(blondie goes in to the toilet)

Phoebe: She's such a fucking liar!
Me: Shushhh she can hear you!

When blondie leave she says to us 'don't judge me' and puts her hand in a praying position. She concerned me.
Well, by this time most of were quite pissed and found everything quite amusing.
I went back to the loo and Blondie was their and she was jumping up and down with madness and said she was mad at her friend, then she started crying in the loo.
I think she was on drugs. Later on I saw her snuggling up to some guy, so perhaps she only sleeps or kisses boys, and never dates them?

At Phoebe's house we had some spagetti and ordered a pizza at like 3am, her brother was also drunk which was highly amusing.

HERE ARE SOME PHOTOS :
This is a photo of Phoebe calling someone. We called a lot of people that night. Phoebe called Ben from the Oratory, and he was quite annoyed, but I think a little bit amused. Apparently I called Juan and told him he broke my heart ten times over, but I don't recall this...Anthony, Jason, Matt, Aidan, me and Phoebe

Friday night at the pub

2007-01-29T05:01:00.000-08:00

SNOWWWW! It snowed in t he middle of the night! Charlie called me at like 7 and told me to look out the window, all I remember saying is 'that was worth being woken up for' then I fell back to a peaceful sleep...

Hehehe anyhowwww...

On Friday Sadia and Dan came down from Warwick and Sheffield to meet up with us all. With them they brung two new fellas, Will (Sadia's boyfriend) and Lukas (The German). Also there was Sophie, Charlie, Jason, Aidan, Emily, Juan and Phoebe. No one told me Juan was coming so I spent the whole night ignoring him.

It was pretty awkward at points as Sadia hadn't told Aidan she has a boyfriend and they have this whole love thing going down. I wanted to get drunk but alas, I only got mildly tipsy.

We were all meant to go to Metro in Tottenham court road but we got in to London at 1am and by then they weren't letting anyone in. Nik sent me a drunken text saying:

'heading 2 tnttenham ct road v los and phave drunk v much of ales. You 2 wana cum back 2 mine? Hmm im in SOHO N xxx'

alas we didn't meet him as you know, awkward and stuff haha.

We were queing for ages for this bar called Roxies but we all gave up. At 3am we got on the N10 which was absolutely packed, and there was an old Irish man shouting in the face of an Indian guy, about 21 trapped in a seat in the corner. I stayed away so got seperated from Jason as he was protecting me and Phoebe.

I saw this tall black 40 year old man slink toward me and I was like 'haha someones drunk'. He was talking incoherently so I giggled just to be polite, but he then put his hand on my arse and tummy and pulled me towards him. I shoved him off and said 'what the fuck are you doing', noticing he was leering at me with his gold teeth, and he said 'I like you, don't you like me?' I didn't answer before Charlie pushed him away.

By now the irish guy looked more and more like he was going to beat the shit out of the indian guy, so I forced my friends to get off the bus. These proper punks were on the bus and they were shoving people off, so I made my most innocent sad face and said to one of them 'I'm sorry, excuse me, I'm so sorry I just want to get off...' so the punk was like 'it's okay love, you're alright, go ahead'. Haha a punk was nice to me! However he did push off Charlie and Will. They didn't push off Jason, Phoebe or Sadia, but did try and nick Sadia's bus pass.
We got on the 14 and got home at 4am, and got up at 8 because Phoebe had work. Fun times!
Here are some photos...

2007-01-23T14:39:00.000-08:00

Hehe I saw this photo and it reminded me of Vanessa :)
anyway...

HELLO.
I am back and my post is not depressing ;D
the other night I went to a vodka lounge with Tom, Richard and Phoebe.
Me and Tom shared ten shots me having : Strawberry, Rasberry, Lemon and Lime, Cherry and White Chocolate. They were pretty sick :p
This guy on a table next to us had to go so he gave us his bottle of champage which had half left. As soon as he was out the door we check the price...40 quid!!! I was like OH MY GODDD...man it was so good ;D
we all got pretty tipsy except for Richard who had a virus from Africa so he was on pills, but he is naturally high anyway...we went to burger king and got some food then returned to Tom's flat at Roehampton (my uni). I met some of his flat mates and they were pretty lame, their kitchen was also disgusting.
When they were gone to play some frisbee (at 2am in the morning...nutters) me and Phoebe but on some prodigy and danced around the room, fun timesss...I then helped her wash her hair.
It was so bloody hot in their I slept in my vest top and pj bottoms, but I barely slept all night, mostly in the fear of flashing someone.

with the champagne! Richard looks slightly scary.
Glasses for Vanessa! Hehehe.

On Friday night I went to Karin's birthday! I wasn't going to go but I was like why not. I gave her a card and some photos of us guys in secondary school. She seemed to like it but perhaps she was lying :p. She kept telling me Charlie was amazing, I think she was slightly tipsy ;D
well all her uni friends are very smart and scary so I didn't really talk to them. I spoke to Daniel Skelton who is a weirdo, Katie who was flirting with SOME GUY (don't deny it Katie) and Liam Hastick who is lovely! Marie arrived with her fit boyfriend as I left. Here are some photos of me looking crap:

KATIE's computing guy hahaha. Hmm I didn't straighten my hair very well now did I...

life ain't so sweet

2007-01-13T12:39:00.000-08:00

Haha okayyy.
This is going to be quite a personal post, so sorry for anyone who doesn't care :p

Basically, the dear Colombian that he is, Juan joined a self help group. Well, he doesn't call it that, but he describes it as 'fixing the things in the past that affect your future for the worse' or something. So he has been going around trying to be a 'good person'

That's all good and well, but when you get a call at 8.30 in the morning, when the previous night you had gone to sleep at 4.30 AM, it's a little bit like 'go away'.

Sadly, the waking me up insanely early isn't the worst part.

He Decides to tell me this:

'Look...I just want to explain to you all the reasons why I've been an arsehole to you for the last two years. When we were dating, you never really wanted me, but I always thought I was better than you, so I tried to make you love me to confirm the fact that I was better than you like I thought. I never loved you, I don't think I really ever liked you, it was all to do with my arrogance. I've been pushing you away for the last couple of years because I thought you'd fall back in love with me again. It's fucking arrogant, I know, but it's the truth. This last week I've barely left the house because I've felt so bad about all the pain I caused you. We're kind of fake friends, you and me, like you said, and as I don't really have any friends I want you to be my first true friend, and I just want you to know that I no longer think I'm better than you, and you're an amazing girl'.

HOW HE THOUGHT telling me he NEVER LOVED ME or LIKED ME would make me HAPPY is beyond me.

I'm a really insecure person. I'm not going to deny it. I need love, I need affection and I need people surrounding me who actually like me. And to think that someone was actually capable of loving me, even though I could never think it was true, was a nice feeling. If I was ever sad I could always remember that I was once loved. Alas, this is the ultimate rejection. A total waste of about 4 years of my life because some stupid guy was arrogant and just wanted the self satisfaction of knowing he could get me, as he knew he was superior to me.

:( I need a hug.

New years ever

2007-01-01T14:08:00.000-08:00

ALLO everyone.
I am highly hungover so GOOD TIMES FOR ALL.

so yesterday I met these people in Wimbledon :
Charlie, Anthony, Aidan, Sadia, Hannah and Jason. Emily and Phoebe also came but too late to be in the photo :p ... so we spent about 20 minutes looking for a pub that didn't charge 20 quid to get in and ended up in berties wine bar.

I had 4 malibu's and cokes for a massive 12 pound 8p altogether hahaha. There were some wankers in there. Dionne from sixth form was there, wearing an extremely low cut top. We were like o_O 'fuck'. She was looking pretty though. I took some photos but they're all awful hahaha. Here are a select few.
Me and Charlie went on to Kingston for a house party. By the time we got there it was 11.40 and seeing as we had bought a massive bottle of aftershock and drank a lot of it on the way. I was quite tipsy by this point. Mo greeted me with a hug, Jamie said 'Alright Rosie, you met me at the cinema' Ben was like 'hi Rosie'. I think he hugged me. Sam said 'Oh my god, you're so hot, make out with me...oh fuck your charlie's bird, shit...well done mate' to charlie. GOOD TIMES. He was on E tough and probably taking the piss out of me. Someone gave me some champagne to drink...this guy called JAYZ ( I thought he was saying Jase) gave me a kiss on the cheek...here is how our convo went:

Jayz: *kiss on cheek* HELLO. You're Charlies bird aren't you?
Me: Yeeeee HAHAHAHA (look ye I was drunk)
Jayz: Rosie, isn't it? Charlie's said loads about you
Me: ALL good I hope hahahahaha
Jayz: HAHAHA actually he's said nothing at all!
*both laugh crazily*

... it really annoyed me how everyone kept calling me his bird. And him 'my man'. They were like 'OI ROSIE, SORT OUT YOUR MAN'. I was asked to slap him at one point. I can't remember why.

Mo said to me 'As a friend, you're perfect. As a girlfriend, you're alright'. I was ready to start an argument with him but I thought no, let me just be merry and smoke some shisha. It was cherry flavoured. I hope no one had an STD at the party. It was the first time I smoked it and was impressed/extremely amused by the bubbles I created. That was about it though.

When I used the loo it connected to a bedroom so a couple that were having sex came out as I was using it. I was too drunk to be embarassed.

There was all this drum and base shit that I didn't know how to dance to. A lot of glow sticks were involved. Apparently me and Charlie made out for ages on the stairs but I don't remember it.

Charlie shook a bottle of champagne and squirted it all over me so I throw my cup in his face, but it only hit his arm. Ben made me drink from a malibu bottle for 5 seconds. Sadly everyone realised I was very drunk and the bottle was taken away from me.

I remember talking to a girl and she was like 'I want to lose weight this year' and I was like NAH MAN YOU'RE REALLY SKINNY...made a friend there :p hahaha.

I don't know how I got home but I managed to use my memory stick for my phone, so all my photos and songs are gone forever :(

When I got back to Charlie I threw up 4 times. Apparently it was bright blue. I didn't see it though...and I woke up drunk, the world was spinning. I actually quite liked it :p hahaha

Well that is all...I feel ill :( Now to call young John, who is awaiting my call. LOVE YA JOHN.x

Lebanese food

2006-12-29T12:08:00.000-08:00

Hehe so Juan wanted to meet me and Phoebe yesterday to give us our Christmas presents, so we arranged to meet him after work at 6.15 in Sloane square.
John needed a stamp so he drove all the way to mine just to get one and then gave me a lift to Wimbledon Village. From there I went to Phoebe's house and we just generally messed about (in a non lesbionic way). We were extremely late meeting Juan and he also got lost because he is a lame, but when he got there we ate some goooood food in a Lebanese restaurant and he gave us our pressies. He gave me a deal or no deal game and Phoebe peep show series 1. Good times!

We had been invited to meet Nik and his group by Fikir, in Fulham Broadway. I wasn't planning on going but thought it would be okay so we went. Nik was kinda drunk. The only other person who came was James and Vasant. Vasant was very drunk! And he had a crazy beanie hat.

We moved on to Weatherspoons. The bouncer wouldn't let Juan in because he didn't have proper ID but Juan sneaked in anyway, then nearly got thrown out. LUKE was there! You know the one I met at your house Vanessa? I didn't recognise him! He was looking very good :) I was like why hello there ;D hahaha. We had a little chat. He asked after Karin but couldn't really remember her name (muhahaha).

Vasant and Nik told me Ben was still really in to me because I was playing hard to get. I was like 'I have a boyfriend' and they said that's the hardest you can ever get. Hahaha. I dunno not much happend really...but ye. That is all! Bye bye! x

Christmas Meal

2006-12-25T12:43:00.000-08:00

Allo again ;D

Hehe so on Saturday night Charlie invited me to his good friend Domonique's 19th birthday. I was like sure I'll come along! What a disaster...only 4 girls were there from sixth form, and I wasn't particular friendly with any of them, and Jason's boyfriend Domonique who kept flirting with me all night. For example I was wearing a badge that said 'Little miss sunshine and he whispered in my ear 'shouldn't that say little miss naughty'. GOOD TIMES. Hahaha.
Charlie was really sweet and tried to get me out of my bad mood but alas once I am in one there's not much you can do. AGAIN we weren't allowed in Spoons because half of us were wearing trains so we went to Bertie's Wine Bar.

Dom was given 5 tequila shots so became extremely drunk. She is the only person I have found adorable when intoxiated. She kept saying things like 'that is positively absurd' hahaha bless. Anna and Claire were pissed from the moment I turned up. Anna blatantly fancies Charlie so I was like grr stop flirting with him :p haha
Kenny, Claire and Dom. There was a joke going that Kenny and Claire pulled so this is a picture of her about to kiss him on the cheek. Lovely.

Charlie, Keeva and Anna. Apparently I look like Anna...what do you think Vanessa? :p

Ooo I have to go now but I shall write about my christmas meal with friends later! Bye bye!x

HAHA I am back. HELLO! I am slightly hyper so sorry ;D hehe anyway on Christmas Eve I met my main group of friends (minus Mr.Juan) for a Christmas meal. I got off the bus in Wimbledon Village and all my friends shouted 'MERRY CHRISTMAS' at me. Everyone on the bus stared. My reply was 'how embarrassing'.

Hanna, Sadia, Aidan, Sophie, Dan and Sam. Phoebe isn't in this photo because she was late. So anyway, we went meant to go to Tootsies but we ended up Jo Shmo's as Tootsies' was too busy for us. I sat next to Sam and Sadia with Dan and Aidan across from me. Sadia gave us all presents of badges which apparently resembles us. I got a kitten in a red dress. Hmm :p haha. Poor Jason was given a frog, how offensive . Phoebe left before we went to weather spoons, as much as I tried to physically restrain her. John briefly came in to the restaurant and gave me my Christmas present, which was a very cool hat. You can see this hat in a photo of Dan wearing it, below.

We met Jason and Anton in Spoons. Nothing much happend. Juan Jose was there also! When we left I had to wait one hour for the bus, dying of cold.

And that's about it :pPhoto of Sam, Sophie and Sadia. All the s' ;) hahaha aww Sadia looks so nice. Okay soooo...GOODNIGHT everyone :)

Good Shoes

2006-12-23T09:46:00.000-08:00

Hellloooo! This is my first post so go easy on my hmm :)

Last night I went to a gig at Koko in Camden, which is quite a famous venue. The band playing were called good shoes and they are from where I live in Morden :D so I thought I'd go share the Morden Love because most people havn't even heard of the place...I'm greatful to them for putting Morden on the map ;)

I met Charlie, Ant D and Yolande in Wimbledon at 7.30. The gig didn't start until 9 so we thought we could quickly go to spoons and get a few cheap drinks. The bouncer took one look at us and said 'no trainers'. What an outrage! Since when has spoons cared what you wear? We shuffled away towards south Wimbledon to get the northern line to Camden

That's me, Charlie and Ant D. When we arrived at Camden we decided to go in to the worlds end pub. It played really heavy metal and I swear everyone was stoned in there. In the looks three scary goth girls started talking to me, I was like 'arghhh don't kill me'.

We walked along the high street and the cue Ant D finished off some girls larger. Welcome to herpes Ant ;D and he touted his two spare tickets. Low and behold, when we reached the bar shots were only one pound!!! Goooood times ;D I think I had 5 in all, with one blue WK which was niiiiiceeee.

So we hung out a bit, Laura joined us with her friend Claire but she soon left to have sex. There was a huge screen which you could text messages to. Laura sent in this message :
it says 'Anyone fancy a shag? I'm the girl in the skinny jeans...' which everyone found highly amusing, mainly because we were slightly drunk but also because LITERALLY every girl there was wearing skinny jeans. They were all bloody stunning and skinny and I felt rubbish :p

By now it was 11.30 and the start up band still hadn't come on. It didn't matter as they were playing funky music, though, so we boogied on down a little bit. Laura and Ant were drunk. I was slightly tipsy ;D...finally about 12.30 Good Shoes came on! They sung about MORDEN which was great! Some girl next to me took some poppers so I gave her an evil look then SUDDENLY a fight broke out! It was insane! I was quite scared. Some girl was being tossed around.

It finished about 2.30 and outside the people started fighting again and one of the guys got a bottle and was going to smash it over this guys head but luckily it fell to the ground. We left before anyone got murdered but we had to literally run to Yolande's parents car because they were going to leave us. Laura was extremly drunk by this point and kept swearing much to the dismay of Yolande's parents. It was nice to a get a lift home to the doorstep.

Well that's all for nowwww...;D